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Ok. Since nobody has updated us on how the repenting is going, I will start.


It is HARD. I find myself repenting for negative thoughts - a lot. Then it is hard to change those thoughts.


I don't often put my personal life online, but I think it may help someone who is reading this and thinking, "She doesn't know how hard my life is. What does she know about being discouraged and questioning God?" Here's what I know.


It started in 2007 - yes that long ago. I was betrayed by those (who I thought were) closest to me and, as a result, left the only church I had ever known. I spent 6 months running from God, finally submitted and found a church in spring/summer 2008. I made friends, close friends. Then my daddy got sick and died 1 week before Christmas 2008. I decided to stay with my mother after that. I decided to go back to school, settled into a routine and eventually met a guy. At one point, marriage was even on the horizon. I was finishing college and did indeed graduate in Dec 2011. As it turns out, that graduation would be the highlight of my last 5 years. Then, it all fell apart. I was again betrayed by those who were supposed to be friends. The marriage did NOT happen. I began applying for jobs before I graduated. In under 1 year's time, I applied for over 300 jobs - and have only received 2 call backs. I was turned down for one of the jobs and my eyesight would not pass the restrictions for the other. I was offered a job in another state only to have every door shut in my face. So now - I am a 34 year old woman with a dgree in Criminal Justice, living with her mother, without a job, without a church, without a hope.


I lost all hope. I became discouraged. I hated the world. I was mad at God and often ignored Him, griped at Him, and yelled at Him. I still have days when I want to do physical damage to my surroundings. Some days I still ask God if there really is a plan for my life or if my lot in life is to wander around until I die. So discouragment, yeah - I know it.


So where from here? I daily - and more than once per day - repent for questioning God's will and methods. I repent - a lot - for wondering if I'm alone. Everyday I have to make myself be grateful for what I do have - that is the second step.


Being grateful. This is the next step in finding your song. Finding something for which to be grateful. You see God doesn't have to bless us with jobs, homes, cars, family, friends, extra food, extra money - any of it. God will take care of His own - that means blessing us by providing for our needs. But He does not have to provide for our wants, to go above and beyond. Sometimes I think He does go above and beyond, just to show off for us. And sometimes I think it is to prove a point to us. And sometimes, sometimes I think he just blesses us because He loves us and He can.


Back to being grateful. Finding things to be grateful for gives us less time to gripe about things. So this week or so, try this:


When you do find yourself griping, complaining, questioning - first repent and then replace those thoughts with gratefulness. For what? Lights, water, a roof, clothes, food, transportation, internet, jobs, family, friends - be creative - trees that change color in the fall, daffodils, snow, clouds, rain to water the plants, gardens for our veggies, cows for our meat, etc. The list goes on. After a while - you will find it easier and easier to overcome those negative thoughts that spring up and replace them with gratefulness.


Update us here. Let us know how it is going for you. Let someone on the board know - "you're not alone." We all struggle sometimes - don't do it alone.

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    Something else I could add to all that you have mentioned is forgiveness.  Unforgiveness leaves us negative and bitter.  Complaining about everything.   We can see unforgiveness in other people so much clearer than ourselves.   One night I was laying in bed not even thinking about anything when God spoke to me and said you are quilty of the things you are saying about this other person.  It was like "what".  The next morning I got up thinking about it and had to repent of MY unforgiveness.  WOW it was a freeing experience.   So now I try to keep short account on others.  


   I don't get mad at God about things in my life because I know my choices have brought me to where I am, not His.   I don't like where it is but it is what it is.   I was in a bible study from a Nancy Leigh Demoss book on being grateful.  Something so many people do over look in life.   An attitude of gratitude.   


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 Bump whitetm!! 


That sounds like a great challenge! I used to at work when I had time, take a short 20 minute walk outside and thank the Lord for things that He created from day one and the job He has given me. It actually takes all those bad feelings and thoughts away and makes for a wonderful day. 


I to have been faced with the some of things that you have faced in your life. I am going on 26 years old and still live at home and cannot get my career started. Life has thrown one curve ball after another with problems costing time and money. It was hard to praise the Lord in those times, but I never cursed Him or yelled at Him. I am guilty of questioning the Lord very often on what the plan is for my life. I know God has a special plan and time frame for when He will put into action, I just need to trust Him! 


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To LadyG - Thank you! You are totally correct about forgiveness.  That is one of our next steps - you just beat me to it!!  :)  We will be covering that shortly.


I also agree that many people have laid aside an attitude of gratitude and picked up the need for greed.  "I want, I want, I want..."  That's all you hear sometimes.  But I read something a long time ago that I still have to remind myself at times - "What if you woke up tomorrow with only the things your were thankful for today?"  Meaning - if you are only thankful for your home, you wake up with only that.  No family, friends, food, job, car, lights, water, etc.  Man - that hit home.  I try to be thankful for as many things as possible because, like I said before, they are all blessings the He does not have to give me.


To Striker - Thank you! For the bump and for your last paragraph.  I know I'm not alone.  I've never cursed God but I have yelled - and had to repent for it.  He does have a plan and I DON"T get to see the playbook.  I just have to trust.  Also another step to which I have been beaten!  :)  We'll cover that too.


For everyone - I know I didn't include verse references in this one.  I'm hoping you're all reading through Psalms and not needing specific references.  Psalms is full of instances where David fell into griping, then repentance, then thankfulness (praise), then so on.  David was a "praiser" all through his life.  It did not start when he was anointed king.  Many of his Psalms were written as a shepherd boy.  He sat/wandered around with sheep all day - with no specific purpose but to protect sheep.  Yet, what did he do?  He praised God - for everything - continually! 


That is why I didn't add any references.  This has turned into a study using Psalms and I trust you all are using Psalms.  There are many other references in the Word - like Isaiah 64:8 (NCV) - "But Lord, You are our Father.  We are the clay, and You are the Potter; Your hands made us all."  That may  not sound like gratefulness to you, but just the act of admitting we are nothing and He is Everything is an act of praise.


One of my daily devotions today used Psalms 119:71 "It is good for me that I have been afflicted, that I may learn Your statutes."  WOW!!!  He praised God for his afflictions because he realized something - he was learning things about God, God's will, and his life - through those afflictions. Amazing.  How many of us remember to praise God for our troubles? 

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 I could not agree more! This world has turned into "I want the next best...." , "I gotta have..." A lot of people have turned into a bunch of greedy somethings lol! 


And I like to mention something from one of Deion Sanders' blog during Thanksgiving. The title is called ThanksLiving. 


In that blog he talks about how we need to not just be thankful just for things one day a year. We need to be ThanksLiving and be thankful for everything everyday! Because their is always someone who has it worse than we do and they would love to have our problems in exchange for theirs.


"In everything give thanks"- Can't remember which chapter or verse this came from.


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Bump that Striker!


I not a fan of Thanksgiving Day simply because people think that is the only time they need to give thanks.  (Kind of like Valentine's being the only day people show their love!)


The verse is found in  1 Thess 5:18.  I really love that verse.  Thank you!

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I have found, both in my own life and hearing it from others, that we often want things to proceed on our schedule, not on the Lord's.  We may feel we know what the Lord has planned for us, but we want it now instead of waiting until the Lord is ready to provide it.  We need to be thankful, even though we feel like we are stuck and want to be somewhere else.

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I have found, both in my own life and hearing it from others, that we often want things to proceed on our schedule, not on the Lord's.  We may feel we know what the Lord has planned for us, but we want it now instead of waiting until the Lord is ready to provide it.  We need to be thankful, even though we feel like we are stuck and want to be somewhere else.



So very true.  And I needed just that reminder this week!  Thank you!

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My Psalms for this week is chapter40. Verse(1)"I waited patiently for the Lord, and He turned to me an heard my cry for help". I am reminded of how I cried, what I would say as I cried, but that He heard my cries! Being a child of God, we cry to our father, often as a child does. WIth questions and frustrations and repentence. Verse (3) "HE put a new song in my mouth, a humn of praise to our God". Everything is done for the glory of God, an sometimes he allows us to be taken to a low place just so he can lift us up and we are once again reminded of His greateness. And how sweet it is to be lifted out of the muck we stuck ourselves in, lifted out by Him time again and again!!

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My Psalms for this week is chapter40. Verse(1)"I waited patiently for the Lord, and He turned to me an heard my cry for help". I am reminded of how I cried, what I would say as I cried, but that He heard my cries! Being a child of God, we cry to our father, often as a child does. WIth questions and frustrations and repentence. Verse (3) "HE put a new song in my mouth, a humn of praise to our God". Everything is done for the glory of God, an sometimes he allows us to be taken to a low place just so he can lift us up and we are once again reminded of His greateness. And how sweet it is to be lifted out of the muck we stuck ourselves in, lifted out by Him time again and again!!



BUMP that!

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batgirl - let me first start by saying thank you. Now - let me say your post was great!  There is a fine line between being proud and knowing who we are in Him.  Many people don't get that, but you pegged it wonderfully when you talked about humility.  We must remain humble and yet know that we can do all things through Christ.  Great post!