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Trying, but fading fast...
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Posted over 3 years ago Okay, I feel as though my life came crashing down on me hard.I was in highschool , fixing to graduate in May 2010,, and was on the road to going to college to work in a law enforcement career. The problem was my mom wanted me to lie for her in court about something she did that involved me, I didnt lie for her, and pressed charges because of that. I wanted to get away from her and all the grief she was causing me everyday , so I left MO, and came to Denver, CO, I'm homeless (concidered a "street kid") and my family wants nothing to do with me. I don't know if I did the right thing or not. It is a constant battle in my head on if I should've lied and kept her out of jail, or not..my heart is breaking and i just want some one to say it will be ok. I.ve never seen anything like the street life before.Its hard, cold, terrifying, and is not anywhere near what i thought my life would end up like. I wish all this had been different.Any advice or words of encouragement is greatly appreciated! |
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| Posted over 3 years ago To start with, I will congratulate you on sticking to your guns and not lying for your mother. . . . .that takes a lot of guts to go against a family member, assuming here that they are the ones in the wrong. Also, yes it will be all right. Now for some questions. . . . . Why Colorado? Do you not have any other family members in Missouri? Do you have family members in Colorado? Do you have family anywhere else that will take you in for a short time? You say you are engaged. . . . .where is this person? Can THEY assist you in some way? Where do you see yourself in approximately 5 years when you can apply for an officer position? Can you get yourself to this place (where you see yourself) with/without assistance? These are just some of the questions that come to my mind right off. Questions that I personally do not need answers to but that you need to ask yourself and be able to answer. . . . .HONESTLY to YOURSELF! I'm sure Colorado has some sort of government assistance and if you go to a local police department. . . . .they would know of what is available localy for you (I'm assuming that you are not wanted due to the issue with your mother. . . .or for any other reason, and that you are of age to be out on your own). If not there, go to a hospital and talk with their counselor about assistance of some sort to get you off the streets until you get your head together. I'm not sure what else I can assist you with as I am in Michigan, but good luck. |
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| Posted over 3 years ago It will be OK. You appear to have a strong sense of right and wrong. Not many would have the courage to make a family member face up to their own mistakes. That can help you more than you realize at the moment. Like msp said check local services that may be able to assist you. It would be nice to see someone that needs help get it rather than the all too often slug that seeks hand outs rather than put forth an effort to care for themselves. |
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| Posted over 3 years ago If you can get in touch with a PL member by the name of ShockUSMC87, you may be able to get some real advice. To my limited knowledge and based on his own admission, he had to deal with a similar situation (minus the family issues.) Other than that, keep your chin up and keep trying. It sounds like you are good person who has fallen on tough times. The Denver Rescue Mission is one place I know of on Lawrence and Park ave. W. Get there early to get a spot because they fill up fast. Living on the streets can put you in a position to do things that may compromise your integrity, so try and stay tough and get in touch with any friends or family that may be able to help, even if you are too proud to accept the help. Don't be afraid to ask, sounds like you need it. |
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| Posted over 3 years ago Take pride in your strength. This is part of being in LE..Your word is one of your most important tools with your peers, CI's, and with Sgt.. Get back into schol, yes a real school and graduate with a real diploma, GED's put youbehind the eight ball as you need college to flip burgers at Wendy's in todays environemt . Get some help , go to the local HS and ask what to do..GET OF THE STREETS BEFORE YOUR PEERS GET YOU INTO A PLACE YOU DON'T NEED TO BE.. Ask for spefic help from a specif person so things are clear about your needs and who is expected to respond and act.. Good Luck and once again my highest level of respect for your courage, Bill
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| Posted over 3 years ago I commend you for your strength in doing the right thing. Stay strong. Is there any safe place you can live for a short time so you are safe and not in danger on the streets? There are community sources that can offer you the help you need at this time. |
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| Posted over 3 years ago I commend you on your moral courage, what you did took a lot of guts. Find a homeless shelter, contact the local police and see if they can recommend a social service organization/shelter for teens. The important thing is to get off the streets and back into school somewhere. Once you get a high school diploma and are 18, you have a lot more options. Consider the military, no I am not recruiting... You will have job training, a salary, medical/dental care, etc. |
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| Posted over 3 years ago I also commend you on your courage and standing up for yourself. My thoughts and prayers go out to you young lady. You absolutely did the right thing. Unfortunately, sometimes doing the right thing can be extremely hard. There are resources you can turn to in Colorado. I wish you the best in your future endeavors. Please keep us posted. God bless! |
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| Posted over 3 years ago Glad you stuck to your guns. Sorry to hear about your situation. Keep your head up! |







