Thanks for sharing your story. It made me sad to see how people so trusted could treat a child with such hatred, and evil intentions. I am proud of you for growing up to be a responsible and stronger person, as most who experience something so vile would turn out to be a hating and angry person most of their lives. Not to mention the fact that you grew p to be a police officer. I am so touched.

Stay safe.

Mike

Thank you Mike  for reading my post and may God bless your pathway..  I am not  LEO, I am an in patient psychiatric RN.

dolphinblue 

I don't even know what to say to you, I'm speachless. (that doesn't happen very often)

Thank you so much for sharing your story. It gave me chills. I'm so sorry that you had to experience childhood like this.

-J

Wow Sherry! Thanks for sharing your story of redemption and how God moved and still moves in your life. Very special. It is a blessing to come to know you. Keep telling your story.

Grace and Peace,

Kathleen

Thank you for your response BiometricsDiva and Poetry.  Violence begats violence, when an abuse survivor takes back the responsibility for their feelings after abuse they restore their self-respect and dignity.  I think it was Eleanor Roosevelt that said..."no one can make you feel inferior without your consent'.  Take back your dignity and self-respect and you own your life, thoughts and future.

Thank you for your heartfelt response kymarcum. If my story helps just one child or adult, that is my passion.

dolphinblue-Sherry

Dolphin blue: You were very brave to post you'r thread, I am proud of you!  

That was a very emotional and personal story you told you are definately a survivor and the Lord has a plan for you and all those you have touched with this brave story not a lot of people woulld have done that because they are affraid to be labeled or looked at in a certain way but that was very inspirational and i am sure your not alone that their is a lot of others but they choose to stay silence thank you for sharing and may The Lord always keep you and watch over you and your family

Yours is a story hope and courage above the horror experienced. I was involved in a couple case that involved several childern abused in Devil cults . One young girl in Houston had fled from her Parents& Granparents in California . She had a small baby and a Church group helped her out. I often wondered about what became of her.  May God Bless and Keep you.

Yours is a story hope and courage above the horror experienced. I was involved in a couple case that involved several childern abused in Devil cults . One young girl in Houston had fled from her Parents& Granparents in California . She had a small baby and a Church group helped her out. I often wondered about what became of her.  May God Bless and Keep you.

I am at a loss for words. All i can think of to say is God Bless You...

why would you share this? Congrats you got your CRJ Degree but just currious why share?

Sherry,

GOD BLESS YOU!  You are one of the victim's I would interview day after day.  Each day I would hear their abuse, my adrenaline would just rev up.  I would fight harder to get as much evidence against the perpetrator that did horrific acts against a child, who took there innocence away from them, there adulthood tarnished and making that child lose the hope of what real adults should be teaching a child to keep them safe. The cycle of violence never stops. 

Interesting enough, I have continued to hear from some victims as children, and now that are adults that have coped with the sexual and physical abuse. Some of them send thank you cards, some send Christmas cards, some send "ceramic angels" that have made from there own hands for therapy.  The victims in some of my cases believe that I was an angel that came to there rescue. What is more enlightening is that they feel safe now yet have that caution.  Many of them are parents and have been taught about right and wrong over long terms of therapy.  Each child handles there abuse in different ways.  I believe they handle the abuse the only way they know how and in many different forms and acts.  Yours was through the grace of God and floating.  It is a disconnect from the pain.  And then there are some that don't make it.  As law enforcement officers we all know that we can't save everyone but WE sure will try.  Unfortunately we don't write the laws, we just have to abide them.  However, some of us do have a say in the law and can fight for the rights of children in the judicial system. I believe you are one of those voices that can help so much in so many ways.  You were put in the position you are today to help those in need.

I could write a book about the do's and don'ts, the struggles we face on an everyday basis but I believe people who are reading the post reply gets the drift. 

I can tell you the first time I started working crimes against children and I almost made it my last time.  It effected me in ways that some people can't comprehend.  However, one day I came back into the office after a child was murdered and I went straight into the interrogation room, which is about a size of a 4x4 room.  Not very big.  I just sat in that room and sobbed.  Wandering what was I doing having this job.  The pain that I endured of what I had to see was nothing that the child endured.  My partner who was with me, told me a situation he went through a year prior and he said, you know Marilyn, I'm going to tell you what a good friend and colleague told me during my sadness of a case.  He said, you are doing the best that you can with the circumstance and even though you could not save this child from harms way, which was out of your control, you can now try to make a difference by trying to make each child safe even if it is for the first hour.  I felt a little better but then you endure so many emotions and thoughts of each and every child, person, case because we as officers have to fight the system ourselves.  We know there are not enough safe homes or foster homes out there for all the children, many of them are sent back into those abusive homes.  Yes they allow parents to go through parenting courses, counseling etc., but they are completing them just for the sake of getting it done.  The minute they are out of the system, the abuse re-occurs or they find ways of us not knowing that they continue to abuse the children or even adults whom can't take care of themselves, either by mental, retardation, or the elderly. 

My final thought to you and to all the victims in this world, is I want people to remember this:  Sometimes we don't know why things happen, all we can do, is hold on to the memories, love and each other. 

May the angels keep watching over you Sherry  but most of all they made you an angel to watch over the victims/children today and every day until our day comes to be floating with GOD.   

From the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU for you believing that not all officers are evil.  That we are there to protect and serve those in need or in harms way.  That is why we chose the professions we are in today.  

AS ALWAYS, BE SAFE,MY SISTER, MARILYN :) 

Just giving this forum a bump to pass it along.

God bless you Sherry, I can't imagine what you have gone through and survived to be the person that you are. I can only wish that there were more loving and caring people like you in this world that we live in. Although I never had to deal with sexual abuse in children, I did have to deal with physical abuse by parents and also a child murder. Those cases changed my life forever and I can still see those little faces as I write this. I pray to God that he will protect and help all his children in the future as he did you.

Hoping you have many blessings in the future.