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This was passed on to me by an officer who is a co-worker of mine. A little long, but definitely worth the read....

I wish you could know what it is like to search a burning bedroom for trapped children at 3AM, flames rolling above your head, your palms and knees burning as you crawl, the floor sagging under your weight as the kitchen below you burns.

I wish you could comprehend a wife’s horror at 6AM as I check her husband of 40 years for a pulse and find none. I start CPR anyway, hoping to bring him back, knowing intuitively it is too late. But, wanting his wife and family to know everything possible was done to try and save his life.

I wish you knew the unique smell of burning insulation, the taste of soot-filled mucous, the feeling of intense heat through your turnout gear, the sound of flames crackling, the eeriness of being able to see absolutely nothing in dense smoke—sensations I’ve become too familiar with.

I wish you could read my mind as I respond to a building fire thinking, “Is this a false alarm or a working fire? How is the building constructed? What hazards await me? Is anyone trapped?” Or to call “What is wrong with the patient? Is it minor or life-threatening? Is the caller really in distress or is he waiting for us with a 2x4 or a gun?”

I wish you could be in the emergency room as a doctor pronounces dead the beautiful five-year-old girl that I have been trying to save during the past 25 minutes. She will never go on her first date or say the words “Mommy, I love you” again.

I wish you could know the frustration I feel in the cab of the engine, squad car, or my personal vehicle, the driver with their foot pressing down hard on the pedal, my arm tugging again and again at the air horn chain, as you fail to yield the right-of-way at an intersection or in traffic. When you need us, however, your first comment upon our arrival will be “It took you forever to get here!”

I wish you could know my thoughts as I help extricate a girl of teenage years from the remains of her automobile. “What if this was my daughter, sister, girlfriend or a friend of mine? What will her parents reaction be when they open the door to find a police officer with their hat in hand?”

I wish you could know how it feels to walk in the back door and greet my family, not having the heart to tell them that I nearly did not come back from the last call.

I wish you could know how it feels dispatching officers, firefighters and EMTs out and when we call for them, our hearts drop because no one answers back. Or to hear a bone-chilling 911 call of a child or a wife needing assistance?

I wish you could feel the hurt as people verbally, and sometimes physically, abuse us or belittle what we do, or as they express the attitude of “It will never happen to me.”

I wish you could realize the physical, emotional and mental drain or missed meals, lost sleep and forgone social activities, in addition to all the tragedy my eyes have seen.

I wish you could know the brotherhood and self-satisfaction of helping save a life or preserving someone’s property, or being able to be there in a time of crisis, or creating order out of total chaos.

I wish you could understand what it feels like to have a little boy tugging at your arm and asking “Is Mommy okay?” Not even being able to look into his eyes without tears falling from your own and not knowing what to say. Or to have to hold back a long-time friend who watches his buddy having CPR done on him as they take him away in the ambulance. You knew all along that he did not have his seat belt on. A sensation that I’ve become all too familiar with.

Unless you have lived with this kind of life, you will never truly understand or appreciate who I am, who we are, or what our jobs mean to us…….I wish you could though.

Please send this on. Support and appreciate your law enforcement officers, firefighters, paramedics, EMTs and dispatchers in your area and nationwide.

One day they will probably be saving your property or even your life. When you see them coming with lights flashing and sirens sounding….move out of the way quickly, then pray for them and whoever they are going to help.

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We do appreciate and support all our emergency personnel, though we don't tell them so nearly enough.

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AMEN to that!

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I WANT TO TELL YOU LIES.

I want to tell that little boy his Mom will be just
fine. I want to tell that dad we got his daughter
out in time. I want to tell that wife her husband
will be home tonight. I don't want to tell it like it
is.....

I want to tell them lies.

You didn't put their seat belts on, you feel you
killed your kids. I want to say you didn't...but
in a way, you did. You pound your fists into my
chest, you're hurting so inside. I want to say
you'll be ok......

I want to tell you lies.

You left chemicals within his reach and now it's in
his eyes. I want to say your son will see, not tell
you he'll be blind. You ask me if he'll be OK,
with pleading in your eyes. I want to say that yes he
will.....

I want to tell you lies.

I can see you're crying as your life goes up in smoke.
If you'd maintained that smoke alarm, your children may
have woke. Don't grab my arm and ask me if your family
is alive. Don't make me tell you they're all dead........

I want to tell you lies.

I want to say she'll be ok, you didn't take her life. I
hear you say you love her and you'd never hurt your wife.
You thought you didn't drink too much, you thought that
you could drive. I don't want to say how wrong you were......

I want to tell you lies.

You only left her for a moment, it happens all the time.
How could she have fell from there? You thought she couldn't
climb. I want to say her neck's not broke, that she will be just
fine. I don't want to say she's paralyzed........

I want to tell you lies.

I want to tell this teen his buddies didn't die in vain.
Because he thought that it'd be cool to try to beat that train.
I don't want to tell him this will haunt him all his life. I want
to say that he'llforget........

I want to tell him lies.

You left the cabinet open and your daughter found the
gun. Now you want me to undo the damage that's been
done. You tell me she's your only child, you say she's
only five. I don't want to say she won't see six..........

I want to tell you lies.

He fell into the pool when you just went to grab the
phone. It was only for a second that you left him there
alone. If you let the damn phone ring perhaps your boy
would be alive. But I don't want to tell you that.........

I want to tell you lies.

The fact that you were speeding caused that car to
overturn and we couldn't get them out of there before
the whole thing burned. Did they suffer? Yes, they
suffered, as they slowly burned alive. But I don't
want to say those words........

I want to tell you lies.

But I have to tell it like it is, until my shift is through. And
then the real lies begin, when I come home to you. You ask
me how my day was, and I say it was just fine. I hope you
understand, sometimes............

I have to tell you lies.

Dedicated to all the LEO's, Medics, Firefighters, Nurses, Emergency Flight Crews and all Civil servants.


"Certainly there is no hunting like the hunting of man, and those who have hunted armed men and liked it never really care for anything else thereafter. You will meet them doing various other things with resolve, but their interest rarely holds because after the other thing ordinary life is as flat as the taste of wine after the taste buds have been burned off your tongue." Ernest Hemingway

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devildog, I did not want my eyes to fill with tears tonight, but you did it. I, as a volunteer firefighter and supporter of LEOs, appreciate it. God Bless our Civil servants.

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Sorry Jim, been wanting to post this one for a while. Think alot needed to hear it. Especially the civies on here that don't appreciat what we go through. I know most here are supporters but there seem to be some bashers too. And don't feel bad about the watery eyes. I don't read this one anymore cause I know that it'll have me choaked up.


"Certainly there is no hunting like the hunting of man, and those who have hunted armed men and liked it never really care for anything else thereafter. You will meet them doing various other things with resolve, but their interest rarely holds because after the other thing ordinary life is as flat as the taste of wine after the taste buds have been burned off your tongue." Ernest Hemingway

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This past February a childhood friend of mine who worked for the Detroit Fire Dept. Station #17 was killed while responding to a call. An SUV hit the fire truck and the cab flipped over or up and pinned him underneath. I can't make myself take his picture out of my truck, him in his uniform. It still sits on my dashboard on top of a flag. This may sound silly or stupid, but I can't put it in a frame or on a shelf somewhere. I don't want to forget or let go.....He was the nicest person you could ever meet. The funeral was so overwhelming and all the men/women in blue from everywhere and what was so nice that there were alot of Detoit Police Officers there as well. When it comes to being there for each other I have to say Detoit rules. We are a big City, with big issues buy also have big hearts. gotta go crying now. I don't know how anyone could bash individuals that risk their lives for others. crying worse now. bye

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BLG said:

This past February a childhood friend of mine who worked for the Detroit Fire Dept. Station #17 was killed while responding to a call. An SUV hit the fire truck and the cab flipped over or up and pinned him underneath. I can't make myself take his picture out of my truck, him in his uniform. It still sits on my dashboard on top of a flag. This may sound silly or stupid, but I can't put it in a frame or on a shelf somewhere. I don't want to forget or let go.....He was the nicest person you could ever meet. The funeral was so overwhelming and all the men/women in blue from everywhere and what was so nice that there were alot of Detoit Police Officers there as well. When it comes to being there for each other I have to say Detoit rules. We are a big City, with big issues buy also have big hearts. gotta go crying now. I don't know how anyone could bash individuals that risk their lives for others. crying worse now. bye

There is nothing wrong with the picture on your dashboard. We all grieve in our own way. There is nothing silly or stupid about it. My deepest sympathies for the loss of your friend. Always remember, he died doing what he loved. Protecting and Serving. Again, God Bless our Civil Servants.

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ODIN said:

I don't know if this will help anyone here but, me and the other night shift supervisor cut our teeth in the jail together, after 13 years of running the streets his running stopped, we had talked that very night of his wreck, i told him that the only thing I would regret if i died before i retired is that i didn't do enough, he said the same thing to me, we talked about LOD deaths and both thought the same way. the night of his wreck i was listening to the radio like i did every night and heard his sgt say in a tearful voice that greg was down, you guys know how i felt and how fast i drove, when i got there he was laying on the road on his back, i could not recognize him after 13 years of looking at him, i had to assist the medics because the brain damage caused him to fight the IV. we lost him that night but he was kept alive on machines for about 3 weeks. the only reason i share this is because it might help the young oes out there, he told me the night that he died that there was only two acceptable ways to die, 1 in the line of duty with his boots on and hair on fire or of old age in his wifes arms. like him i know what im in for in this line of work, so never cry for me if i go that way.

I cry for every LOD death, Odin. It breaks my heart every time I hear of another. Someone out there protecting and serving me, someone they don't even know, who would give their life for me, how can I not cry and grieve. Would you PM me his name and EOW so that I can honor him on the ODMP, if I haven't already done so. My deepest sympathies for the loss of your friend and partner. May he Rest in Peace.

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ODIN said:

The first pict i have up in my profile is dedicated to him.

I just went to the pic, filled my eyes with tears, and said a prayer.

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my brother from another mother i would ball my a$$ off , then i'd ride bareback on your favorite horse , stop off at a barkless trees and sing with the bees , all in memory of you.............stand proud with any of you , kick a$$ and take names because this is who we are this is what we do..............when that call for help goes out , there isn't an answering machine saying "sorry we're not in leave a message "ours say what's your location we're on our way...........this is who we are , this is what we do .................


...don't play with me , i'll keep you way up after your bedtime.....

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ODIN said:

You might not want to get on the horses i ride, but if you do you will have something else on your mind instead of me.

AND YOU KNOW THIS , MAN !


...don't play with me , i'll keep you way up after your bedtime.....

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i was hoping you would say that , although you know how horses really feel about me..............i would for you


...don't play with me , i'll keep you way up after your bedtime.....

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ODIN said:

Lets ride horses while im here val.

can i have a shetland pony ?


...don't play with me , i'll keep you way up after your bedtime.....