Hello my Friend.
I hope this note finds you and your loved ones well. The weather in the northeast is turning cooler. The leaves will soon turn into the most beautiful shades of red and yellow. I believe fall to be my favorite season of all.
How I miss my family in Norway , and the coast. Sometimes it feels like my throat closes. And my heart threatens to break. Thank God, I have my daughter, which helps me with the rare but searingly painful moments.
Wow, She just started her Junior year in Highschool and works her first Job. How did this happen?
Time flies, I remember her birth just like it was yesterday.
No One Knows, No One Feels ,No One Understands how we feel after so many years with our Hearts beating 90 miles per hour and being one call away from Terror or Heartache, Even we dont know and wont until we arrive on scene, We also wont know that 25 years later we will remember, we will hurt and we will suffer for the things we witnessedm the lives we saved , the babies we held injured and dead, Those were some of the worst , The Wrecks, The shootings and the personal pain that backs up into the human mind over 20 years and then after retirement it starts coming out, remembering , seeing , even the smells of the scenes, and we are Broken, But we dont have broken bones or a visible Injury,It is there in our minds and has started to emerge for us to face from all those years ago..Its time to remember , time to feel the Pain you put on the back burner and kept in that dark place so you could carry on with you Profession....PTSD it is real and it does cause you pain , the Pain is lifelong and and comes from Hundreds of the Memories you filed years ago, so you could carry on as a Police Officer........Semper Fi